The Good Stuff

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I love seeing people do little playful things...

a parked taxi driver jumping up from the sidewalk to reach the 

tree branches,

a middle aged man walking with his cat to the park and indulging kitty's curiosities,

young kids turning any simple act into an exciting game 

to pass the time..

I myself act out sounds while I drive or run, 

and while it sometimes upsets my pacing,

I find it so fun to jog and punch the air

or really do go get my go-go-go-go-go-go-go-go-go-go gadget flow...

The other day my friend asked me what my biggest pet peeve was,

something that I absolutely can not tolerate-

and I was a little surprised to draw a blank.

There are things that bother me, 

but nothing that makes me leave a room-

instead, all I could think of 

was all the little quirks that make me smile.

And catching people be silly is one of my favourites.

There are no stupid questions

I have been feeling a slight tugging over the past few months

Each time I shrug it off 

a minor thought, 

a passing feeling,

But it seems, that over these past few months, 

each uncomfortable moment tugs at my 'future career'

And suddenly today, it left me feeling unsettled and concerned.

Since I started my post-secondary journey, 

the future projections for career and lifestyle have been tied to Environmentalism.

As I grow older I've become more aware of the monumental struggles of obtaining jobs, 

better jobs, 

homes, 

sustenance, 

partners, 

things and 

inner fulfillment.

I’ve begun to feel unconfident in my ability to match a career in Environmentalism to an extremely sustainable lifestyle.

I feel torn between what kind of city/town I want to live in,

What kind of home,

And where my initially small income will go.

I grew up in a suburb, 

and while I find them placeless, boring and limited,

I have a shortlist of neighbourhoods I’d want to call home in the 

Big City

I love the idea of having a small yard, with room for a garden and 

fire pit,

But I know that suburban, 

low-density housing is possibly the most unsustainable planning 

we’ve ever utilized,

I also know that my dollar will go much further outside of the Big City.

At the time being, 

I eat so many vegetables off the Dirty Dozen list,

and while I’m educated in how these toxic chemicals affect my body, 

I can’t buy organic right now. 

A small expense yes, 

but I already stretch my tiny grocery budget about as far as it will go.

Once I get out of school, I will need to take a job,

And I will have the responsibility of wielding a larger (hopefully) income, 

but where will it go?

I will not be live feeling like a hypocritical environmentalist.

I take pride in being true to the bone

Will I be able to live in a smart, mega-dense home,

Utilize all the newest energy efficient appliances,

Purchase the right products from the right manufacturers,

And eat the most sustainable foods?

And 

how will those around me participate?

I just don’t know.

I feel like the things I’ve learned, 

I cannot unlearn

And I cannot forget  

I would never want to.

The things I’ve learned make me question what I believe in,

How I want to conduct myself,

And how involved/devoted I can become.

Special Day

I really miss celebrating Fathers' Day

My Dad passed away a few years ago now.

I have not gotten over it

I doubt that anyone really does

Some days I talk about my 'parents' and include him in the present

possibly confusing those around me,

and some days I have to explain that no, in fact,

I lost my father when I was 22

I always enjoyed Fathers' Day

a bit more than Mothers' Day

there was no fear for criticism of the gifts I had picked

the breakfast I fried

or the dinner I bar-be-qued,

he expressed overwhelming gratitude for even the smallest effort.

My dad just liked to chill in the sun and let everyone enjoy the day

he was an Epic man like no other.